What do you see, Carter?
Oct. 13th, 2019 09:10 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
callunavReading (rereading) Patricia McKillip makes me want to start writing again, but I've grown mistrustful of my ability to write.
That's a little painful, since I first formed the ambition to write fiction when I was 7 (after my first adventure in doing so), continued to believe it would be my profession until 17, and continued to understand it to be an intrinsic part of my identity until...when? Sometime last year, when I first found myself reading good writing, snagging on a perfect image or a great turn of phrase, and thinking, "I would never have thought to write that"? Before that? I'm not sure.
It's still drifting somewhere in my identity, I think, but waterlogged with uncertainty.
That's a little painful, since I first formed the ambition to write fiction when I was 7 (after my first adventure in doing so), continued to believe it would be my profession until 17, and continued to understand it to be an intrinsic part of my identity until...when? Sometime last year, when I first found myself reading good writing, snagging on a perfect image or a great turn of phrase, and thinking, "I would never have thought to write that"? Before that? I'm not sure.
It's still drifting somewhere in my identity, I think, but waterlogged with uncertainty.